Month of October, 2003

Work is Good

The past couple of days at work have been phenominal. We've been doing team building and "experiential learning." We're learning as a group by doing. It's been really good to get out of the daily grind and think at a higher level. I feel really lucky to work with the people in my team. They are truly a fantastic bunch.

Tonight my boss and my boss's boss took the team to dinner. We had an amazing time and I feel very motivated. This is a good week.

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Can I please have my life back?

I feel like someone has taken my life away from me. I'm simply a robot going through the motions. Days fly by and I hardly remember what I've done. I don't even have time to write anymore.

It's late and I should be going to bed. I'm tired. I have a big day before me. My boss will be in the office tomorrow. My boss's boss will be in the office the day after. I forgot to send a client email before I left the office. I'd send it now but the client's email is in a system I can't access from home. Damn. I still want to talk to Kevin before I fall asleep. And I don't want to fall asleep on the phone while Kevin is mid phrase (but I always do).

I miss the nights when I could call a friend on my drive home from work and make dinner plans. I miss when I could surf for hours. When I never thought about work when I got home. When I could go out of town for the weekend and relax. When I could write volumes every day. When friends invited me to social events because I would actually show up. I miss spending time with my sisters after work. Now I get home and they're both in bed. I miss walking my dog.

My life feels a bit out of control, but it's all my fault. I thought it would be a good idea to get an MBA. I thought it would be a good idea to take a promotion at work. They are both good ideas, but I wouldn't recommend them simultaneously. It's exhausting. When I'm not at work, I'm at school. When I'm not at school, I'm at home to sleep. When I'm not at any of those places I'm in the car going to one. I spend way too much time in the car.

Sorry I'm so whiny tonight.

Lubbock
Weekend before last I was in Lubbock with Kevin. It was a very quick trip but a really, really good one. Kevin and I really connected. I remembered why all of this long distance stuff is worth it. I've become so self-centered that I forget sometimes. Kevin has more patience than anyone I've ever met. I don't deserve it, but he keeps forgiving me. Kevin, I promise I'll make it up to you after I finish this damn MBA.

California to Texas in a Car
This weekend I flew to California with my father then drove back to Texas. My great aunt, Jennie, lost her drivers license (she's 90) and gave her car to my parents. There's a lot of desert between LA and Dallas. I took pictures but I doubt I'll have time to ever put them up. You're not missing much...everything is brown.

El Paso
This weekend Kevin and I are going to El Paso to see Autumn and Ky. It's exciting everyone will finally meet. It's wonderful that I will see such good friends. I hope I can relax and soak it all up. I just have to get through the next 4 days in one piece.

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Vacuum

Someone is vacuuming at work which strikes me as very, very strange.

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Camera Phone

I bought a camera phone quite a few weeks ago and I've been snapping away. (I love taking pictures.) But I haven't had time to put any up here. This was a night I was the only one at home and all the dogs congregated in my bed. It's good to be loved.

Oh yeah, and finals are over. So I'm going to Lubbock this weekend since Kevin is there visiting his parents. Not looking forward to the drive tonight, but I'll probably enjoy it once I'm finally on the road.

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Billboard

Has anyone else noticed that their comments are being used for advertising? The past few days I've deleted at least a dozen comments that were solely for the use of advertising some product (mostly porn). I'm pretty annoyed already.

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MBA Trade-offs

It's Saturday night, and I'm studying finance. I'd rather be playing video games. I'd rather be at a bar. I'd rather be with friends. This MBA thing better be worth all the trade-offs I'm making.

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Games, Tests, Plans, and Laws

GameCube update: It didn't arrive in time for a weekend of vegetation, but it did arrive Monday. I could hardly wait so I torn the box open and got everything set up. Only to realize that the box didn't contain a game controller. At that point, I had a few choice words for the Ebay seller. I managed to calm down and write him a nice note. He wrote back apologizing that he forgot to include it in the package. So, it's in the mail. Last night I decided I couldn't wait any longer and bought a new controller on the way home from work. Then all I did was play Zelda Wind Waker for 3 hours.

Playing a video game last night was so nice because all I've been doing for the past two weeks is study. Yes, I know, I'm in school so that's all I'm supposed to be doing, but it wears on me! I have finals next week on Monday and Wednesday. Then I'll start a new set of classes the following week. I'm looking forward to it. Anything other than tests excites me. I hate finals.

I've got some travel planned. After my finals, I'm going to Lubbock since Kevin will be there visiting his parents. The following weekend Dad and I will go to California and drive my Great Aunt's car back to Texas. Then for Halloween, I'm going to El Paso to visit Autumn and Ky. It's going to be very busy this month, but hopefully things will slow down as the holidays approach. (Ha, yeah right.)

I took defensive driving a few months ago to lower my insurance costs. The online defensive driving company was nice enough to alert me to new laws in Texas regarding driving. In case you're interested, new laws are here. (Oh yeah, that email that said Texas law says you have to wear a headset with your cell phone while driving? Not true.)

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No, I'm Not Wearing a Wedding Ring

Weirdness. I just met a coworker in person that I've only worked with over the phone. This is pretty typical for me, since I work in a satellite office and not headquarters. It's always fun to meet someone in person to put a face with a name. The weird part of today was that he kept looking at my hands. I know he was just trying to see if I wear a wedding ring or not. Yeah, I'm young and I look young. I know that my position surprises a lot of people. I know that people like to learn things about other people without asking, which is where the wedding ring thing comes into play. However, it creeps me out when people are overly obvious about it.

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It's Not Even My Wedding!

I just woke up from a nightmare about the approaching wedding of Karen and J. It's a whole whopping 6 months away, but it's already affecting me. I can only imagine how bad it is for them.

So in my dream, I was late. Of course, being late is the like the worst thing I could possibly do. Then I didn't have my dress and I was wearing black. Why would I show up in black and not the actual bridesmaid gown? Who knows, that's why it was a nightmare. Somehow we found a dress. It was on the back of a toilet and I managed to drop the whole dress in the water. This is only moments before we're supposed to be walking down the ailse. I'm wringing the dress out on the floor and trying to get into it. Before I'm actually done, the wedding party is out the door! They didn't even wait for me! I had to walk to the altar all by myself, completely humiliated because the bride was already there.

I woke up in a cold sweat...thank goodness this isn't my wedding.

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Owww, Owww, Owwwwww!

Owww, Tiger, that hurt! Playing with the dog tonight resulted in a bruise and slight headache. We were playing tug of war with a stuffed squirrel when Tiger unexpectedly let go of his end and stood up. In the process, his head collided with my eye. He hit me so hard I saw stars! Now I'm got a mild headache in both sides of my head. Who knows how Tiger feels!

To share my pain, I've included pictures:

It's the eye on the right hand of the screen. Yes, I know it doesn't look that bad, but it hurts!

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FerociousCheese.com

I absolutely love this guy's photos. I wish I saw the world as beautifully as he captures it.

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Getting to the Bottom of REM Sleep

Really enjoyed the piece on NPR this morning about sleep research. I think the most appealing part of the story was the personal twist on it. The journalist who wrote the piece did his PhD studies in sleep research. Fascinating.

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Dad & Karen in Peru

Yeah, Dad and Karen are finally home from Peru!

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