I can't believe it's only

I can't believe it's only Thursday. I'm exhausted and just want to have the weekend to lay around...specifically in an inner tube on the Guadalupe.

Last night I spent some time with Jason, who I haven't seen in at least a month. It's strange how different our lives have become in such a short time. And though Jason is the same person he's also not. Maybe I'm just seeing him in a different light. It's hard for me that he's not happy yet not really sad either. He's in that completely neutral phase where life is just a day by day existence. It's hard for me to understand because I don't live like that. I don't think I could ever live like that. I'm programmed differently - I'm "too responsible." It was good to see Jason. It was wonderful to talk because with Jason I can talk about anything. There's a comfort level which I don't have with too many other people. Yet at the same time, it's difficult to spend time with Jason. My emotions are very up and down in regards to him. I wish I understood myself. But I'm glad I got to see him. It was good even if it was a little hard.

It's a shame the evening ended with a parking ticket.