Can I please have my life back?

I feel like someone has taken my life away from me. I'm simply a robot going through the motions. Days fly by and I hardly remember what I've done. I don't even have time to write anymore.

It's late and I should be going to bed. I'm tired. I have a big day before me. My boss will be in the office tomorrow. My boss's boss will be in the office the day after. I forgot to send a client email before I left the office. I'd send it now but the client's email is in a system I can't access from home. Damn. I still want to talk to Kevin before I fall asleep. And I don't want to fall asleep on the phone while Kevin is mid phrase (but I always do).

I miss the nights when I could call a friend on my drive home from work and make dinner plans. I miss when I could surf for hours. When I never thought about work when I got home. When I could go out of town for the weekend and relax. When I could write volumes every day. When friends invited me to social events because I would actually show up. I miss spending time with my sisters after work. Now I get home and they're both in bed. I miss walking my dog.

My life feels a bit out of control, but it's all my fault. I thought it would be a good idea to get an MBA. I thought it would be a good idea to take a promotion at work. They are both good ideas, but I wouldn't recommend them simultaneously. It's exhausting. When I'm not at work, I'm at school. When I'm not at school, I'm at home to sleep. When I'm not at any of those places I'm in the car going to one. I spend way too much time in the car.

Sorry I'm so whiny tonight.

Lubbock
Weekend before last I was in Lubbock with Kevin. It was a very quick trip but a really, really good one. Kevin and I really connected. I remembered why all of this long distance stuff is worth it. I've become so self-centered that I forget sometimes. Kevin has more patience than anyone I've ever met. I don't deserve it, but he keeps forgiving me. Kevin, I promise I'll make it up to you after I finish this damn MBA.

California to Texas in a Car
This weekend I flew to California with my father then drove back to Texas. My great aunt, Jennie, lost her drivers license (she's 90) and gave her car to my parents. There's a lot of desert between LA and Dallas. I took pictures but I doubt I'll have time to ever put them up. You're not missing much...everything is brown.

El Paso
This weekend Kevin and I are going to El Paso to see Autumn and Ky. It's exciting everyone will finally meet. It's wonderful that I will see such good friends. I hope I can relax and soak it all up. I just have to get through the next 4 days in one piece.

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